This quarter of school has been grueling. I have to say I am really looking forward to finishing it up in a 2.5 weeks and heading home for my long winter break. I can't wait to have time to actually do things I enjoy.
October at Ohio University means one thing: PARTYING!! With homecoming followed closely by our nationally-known HallOUween block party, the month of October becomes nothing more that one huge party.
As a result, my huge course load and overworking led, inevitably to a need to blow off some steam and a bit too much fun.
Don't get me wrong, I have had a blast this month. I have grown closer with the roomsters, made some new friends, and reconnected with some old ones. All of my nights out have been great and mostly drama-free, just how I like it.
However...I can't help feeling like my body is suffering. I have had a cold and a hoarse voice for 3 weeks. Along with "having a good time" (that is what we are going to call it.. gotta stay professional here) comes waaaay too much eating. Of nothing but crap. I am stuck in this internal battle between wanting to participate in everything my friends are doing and wanting to maintain the healthy lifestyle I have worked so hard to create for myself.
Unfortunately, fun and over-indulgence has won out as of late. Every Sunday I find myself disgusted by everything I consumed over the weekend. Feelings of guilty overtake me, and I resolve to do better starting Monday. Then, Monday night I find myself mindlessly binging on anything that tastes good. I am just watching all of my hard work slip away as excess pounds work their way back on (even though when I weighed myself at the gym today, I had only gained about a pound).
I am searching for a way to break this cycle, and I feel like the only way I will be able to will be to stop going out with the girls. But, I don't want to disconnect with them in the same way I did last spring when my food issues were at their height. I know that my fears are unreasonable. None of my friends worry about this stuff like I do, and they all look and feel great.
I am training myself to relax, and I know that just the fact that I have gone out as much as I have means that I have made so much progress. I have hope for the where I will go, but I still worry about the effect it is having on my health.
Any advice or words of wisdom?
As the new month of November rolls in, I think this is the perfect opportunity to set some goals for myself relating to my health and overall happiness.
1. Eat more filling and satisfying, well-balanced meals through out the day.
Hopefully, this will help me cut out the late night binging.
2. Limit going out to one night a week for the rest of the quarter.
There is no reason why I shouldn't have fun... within moderation.
3. Get back to working out at least 3 times a week.
With being sick and busy, I have slacked recently. Gotta get back on that wagon!
4. Sleep! At least 6 hours a night.
Nothing is more influential on my day than how much rest I got the night before.
5. Focus on school work, time manage, stress less.
Getting through the quarter in an organized and controlled way is going to be a life saver.
Alright, November, bring it on!